Sacrifice - My article at JTS

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http://www.jtsstrength.com/articles/2013/11/12/sacrifice/

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Training - Squats and pulls with a PR....yes a PR

Bodyweight - 265

Squats -
barx20,20,20
135x10,10
225x5,5,5
315 x 8 sets of 5

Deficit Deadlifts -

225x2
315x2
405x2
500x2
585x1

635x3 PR

Notes - Quad felt like it was going to explode on second and third reps but somehow it held together.  Happy to get this milestone out of the way.

Offseason Training - Base Building - Pressing and Back

Bodyweight - 270

Incline -
barx20,20,20
135x10
185x5
225x4
275x3

315x8,8,8,8

Tit Machine - 3x8

Row Machine - stack 4 sets of 15
Hammer Row - up to 675x10

Notes - OMG, the first day of training after a meet is awful.  Everything hurts.  Work capacity is shit.  I won't call it a -10% session but it was pretty full of suck.

Quad tear bruise day 2

I'm not a heavy "bruiser".  Even when I tore my bicep tendons I had very little bruising down my arm from it.
So this should at least give some indication of the severity of this tear.....

Relentless recap - Part 2

After a full nights sleep I woke Saturday morning, ready to rock and roll.  In fact, my sleep was so full that I realized that it was 8 o'clock, and that I was already supposed to be at Kirby Church for the rules meeting.

Ooops.  

Well, powerlifting meets never start on time.  And the truth is, the way that I lift tends to fall under "legal" for every fed out there.  So I generally don't need it.  

The last two sentences could fall under "things I tell myself to feel better for waking up late to the rules meeting."  

I texted Furry and asked him if he was on his way.  

"Pullin up".

Oh, nice.  He woke up late too.  Now I feel even better and less like a loser than before because Furry overslept and was late as well.  

I grabbed my box of pancakes left from the previous morning, threw them in the microwave and grabbed all of my shit.  

Furry and I did make a stop at the store where I grabbed some 5 hour energies, bananas, gatorades, tater chips, advil, poptarts, and a few other things I can't remember.  I knew there would be catering at the meet, however I do like me some snacks in between meals.  

Furry and myself

We arrived at the Church/meet site, and hauled our shit in.  Because Justin in a geared lifter, he had much more shit than I, a man who doesn't even use a belt, had to haul in.  As I surveyed all the shit he would be wearing to compete in, I wondered to myself if he would be fighting Robocop after or JUST doing a powerlifting meet.  

Once inside, we sat our bags in a room that contained at least 1 million other bags.  I literally have not seen that many bags at a meet ever.  Someone even had an Eason bag that was so large you could have fit Jabba the Hutt AND half-naked Princess Leia in it.  

I have no idea why anyone would need a bag that fucking big at a powerlifitng meet.  Not even a geared lifter.  How much shit does one need?  I mean even the medium raw people (belts and knee wraps) shouldn't need a huge bag.  Some knee wraps, wrist wraps, and a belt.  Does this require the largest Samsonite bag available?  

There were 172 flights at this meet.  So I knew it would be a long day.  It wasn't long after Fartbox showed up that we started our warm ups for squats.  At Nationals a few months before, I felt like shit from the word go that day.  The entire day all I could think about was crawling back into bed.  I was tired, weak, and felt like shit.  

But on this morning, I felt like a god damn beast.  I felt strong, full, and ready to go.  My warm ups echoed this sentiment to me as well, as I moved 315, 365, 405, and 515 with such speed and force that the bar flew off my back.  Every warm up felt like 135.  At 405 I checked twice to see if someone had taken some plates off.  Kevin Smith reiterated to me that my warm ups looked ridiculous, and that I looked strong as hell.  

Kevin, Me, Fartbox, and John

Finally....it was going to be my day.  

I called 570 for my opener.  Because I was late, I didn't have a rack height in.  However the guy that was in our warm up group had gone right before me, and we were similar in height.  So I just told the crew at the front to keep it at his rack height.  Which was "17-in".  

I hit the platform, kissed my forearm, walked my weight out, and blew through the 570 like an empty bar.  No sticking point, no grind.  Felt perfect.  Just like a warm up should.  I walked over to the table and called for 620.  

When it was my turn again, I repeated the same as before.  Kissed my forearm, got under the weight, and unracked it.  

When I unracked the 620, internally, a smile manifested itself inside of me.  It felt as light as anything over 600 has ever felt on my back.  During the walk out, I thought to myself "....I may take 660 on my third."  It felt THAT light.  Just like every other weight had felt.  It was a great feeling.  

I got set, took my breath, and hit to hole.  As I drove out of the hole, I felt a slight twinge in my right quad....and nano seconds after that, I felt what I could only describe as a bomb going off in my leg.  The entire lateral side of my right leg felt like it just exploded.  

I stayed with the bar instead of dumping it (because I hate when I see that shit), and helped the spotters do their job.  I leaned forward on the bar once it was racked, then tried to walk off.  

No dice.  

I couldn't put my leg down.  The pain was debilitating.  Someone started helping me off the platform before Rob Luyando came over to assist them.  They sat me down in a chair.  An action that made me feel like someone was ripping my thigh off.  I don't remember all of the events that happened right after that.  I remember being overcome by nausea, and thinking "I'm about to throw up all over the fucking place."  I remember this surge of heat radiating throughout my body, as if I had been suddenly transported to the desert.  I remember Pam coming to check on me, and me snatching her water without warning and dumping it all over my head.  

There was a massage therapist on site and she and Rob wrapped a band around my leg very tightly.  This felt so awful that my friend nausea returned immediately, and tried to start making his way out of my stomach, but I was able to contain him via some deep breathing.  After a while they removed the band and asked me if I could walk.  

"I don't know."  I said.  

They helped me to my feet and I hobbled down the long hallway, and into the back of the church near the warm up area, where a couch was.  

I plopped down on said couch, which is ultimately where I would end up spending the majority of my day.  You would think that I would have been overcome by disappointment and grief, which would indeed come later, however the pain was so severe all I could think about at the time was "I wonder if anyone has any vicodin?"  

Not much time had passed when someone associated with the meet came and asked me if I was ok, and if I was "done"....out of the meet.  

"No." I said.  "I'm going to bench and pull.  I'm going to finish."  

"You sure?" they said.

"Yeah."  I said.  

I wasn't about to quit.  I wasn't about to not finish this meet.  We were there because Relentless was about bringing awareness to children battling terminal illnesses, and raising money to support their families.  I'm going to bow out of this because of a torn quad?  Oh hell no.  

Not only that, before I left home I drew three circles on my forearm.  I had each of my girls put the first letter of their first name in a circle.  It would be the first time I would be competing without them, but I wanted them to know that they would still be with me in my heart.  So before I made my attempts, I would kiss my forearm, or hold it over my heart.  I wanted my girls to know, there's no quit in dad.  

In the warm up area, getting up and down off the bench was the most difficult task in regards to benching.  I couldn't leg drive, but I could still bring my leg back in order to get "some" tightness.  I didn't want to be completely laxed on the bench.  So I dealt with some of the pain, then uncorked my foot as fast as possible after I was done pressing.  This was not a delightful experience.  Rob Luyando found a knee wrap and wrapped my leg for me to keep some pressure on it.  

The weights themselves felt light in my hands.  However with leg drive they didn't have the same degree of force coming off my chest as usual.  I knew I could still open at 390 on bench regardless of that and just go from there.  

I hit the 390, then called for 420, which I felt would still be fairly easy.  And it was.  

I then called for 440.  I knew it would be iffy without the leg drive.  I had come there knowing that 450 was in the bag, and that 465 might even be possible if everything was lining up just right.  I was in the opposite of that "lining up right" scenario, but I figured 440 would still go.  

I took the 440 down, felt light on the descent so I knew I probably had this one in the bag.  Then right after the press, I sort of "forgot myself" and went to initiate leg drive.  A pain shot up my leg and through my back and spine like a hot knife.  The weight stalled as I lost all concentration at that point, and the spotters took it.  

I hobbled over to the hallway, and plopped down in a chair.  The pain was so intense up my leg and back that I couldn't find a comfortable position to be in.  It was at that point that the disappointment started to sink in, and combined with the pain I found myself sobbing.  Not afraid to admit it at all.  I had come there to compete and to get some long desired ghosts put to rest, and not only did I get injured (again) but injured to a degree that was causing me more physical pain than I had ever had from any injury.  That's including two torn biceps, a torn hamstring, a permanently dislocated shoulder, and a myriad of other things that can and do occur over 25 years of lifting.  

At that point, Kevin Smith came over to me and said a lot of things that really helped me to regain my focus and I pushed all of the feelings of misery out of my head.  

After all, I still had to pull.  

I would be pulling stiff legged of course.  In the warm up room, just getting down to the bar was the hardest part.  I could only bend my knees just a little bit, but that's about all I bend them when I pull stiff legged anyway.  Still, every rep hurt like a mother fucker.  The first pull wouldn't feel so bad, but then if I did a second rep, the pain was terrible.  

Luckily, in the warm up room Brandon Lilly cracked jokes and added a lot of levity to the environment and the heaviness of my heart really appreciated that at the time. 

I needed to change my opener because it was still set at 615.  The plan was to go 615-660-705, however that obviously was not happening today.  So I asked Fartbox if he'd go let them know to change my opener to 550.  He said he would.  

I worked up to 515 in the warm up room, and it did not feel ok.  Still, I figured if I couldn't pull god damn 550 stiff legged then like a horse with a broken leg, I should just be taken out back and shot dead.  

When it was time to pull first attempts they went right past 550 without calling my name.  I was confused.  I walked over to Donnie Thompson who was the MC and asked him if they got the change in my opener.  

"We didn't get it." he said.  

"Ok....."

"Do you want to just go during second attempts?" he said.  

"Yeah, that's fine.  550."  I said.  

Fartbox told them, I'm sure.  However in the chaos of a big meet sometimes these things do get lost in the shuffle.  

No biggie.  I'd just pull 550 on my second, then 600 on my third.  

"So you're still pulling?" Furry asked me in the hallway.

"Yeah" I said.  "I'm going to go out there and pull 600 stiff legged style."

Furry burst into laughter.  

"That's awesome!"  

Before I went to pull, Brandon leaned in to me and said "go out there and pull something good for those three beautiful little ladies you got back home."  

Fuck Brandon Lilly.  I swear to God, I was already having a hard enough time holding shit together and he says that?  In all seriousness, it was one of the best things anyone could have said to me.  

I went out and pulled 550 with little trouble, then called for the 600.  

When my time came up, I gave my girls a kiss, set up with as little knee bend as I could, and destroyed it.  

600 Pull Stiff Legged Style

I had finished.

My total was a measly 1590.  Obviously well under the 1800 I had planned.  However, I left with a sense of accomplishment about a meet I had never had before..  After all, finding out how you deal with adversity tells you a lot more about yourself than how you deal with all the cards being lined up in a row.  Most people can handle that fairly well.  However lots of people fold under adversity or struggles.  That or they bemoan their situation or whine about judging or the short end of the stick they got.  

More important than all of that, Relentless raised 140K+ dollars to go towards the families we were all there to support.  Last year, they raised 33K, I believe.  That's a hell of a jump.  

Relentless is a really, really special thing.  I don't know that I would want to do ever be part of another meet right now for the simple fact that in comparison, it is going to fall short.  It's also really put my goals and "numbers" back into perspective.  Something I started realizing the night before the meet when I made that video about "Sacrificing".  

The 1590 I gave to Relentless is worth FAR more than any total I've ever put up before because it came via adversity like I had never known in a meet, and it came via a great cause, surrounded by so many great people.  

In closing I would like to thank some of those people - Pam Bosko, Tommy Westoff, JJ, Marshall Johnson, Rob Luyando, Chad Dresden, Kevin Smith, Justin Graalfs, Brandon Lilly, Christine Marie, and a whole shit slew of other folks that made the weekend worth remembering.  If I left you out, it's not because I don't love you.  It's just because I don't feel like typing anymore.  

Also, no more weight cutting.  275's from here on out. 

Relentless recap - Part 1

Well meet weekend is over, so you know what that means.

It means I have a recap to write up, and that I'm injured.

I'd love to say that's a joke, however at Relentless I sustained what is probably the most painful injury I've ever had in my 25 years of lifting.  I don't know the extent of it, or if I will need surgery but I can tell you from a pain standpoint, it was easily the most painful injury I've ever had.

Before we get to all of that though, I want to recap most of the weekend because it was indeed an incredible weekend, with a lot of incredible people.

I had to weigh in Friday morning, so Thursday was a pretty miserable day.  My weight came down to a certain point and then just stopped.  I had been conversing with Pam the whole time and she was having the same issue,as she was cutting for the 148's.

When you're trying to make weight the only thing you can think about is stepping on that scale and getting that shit done and over with.  So that night I barely slept.  I think I literally slept for one hour.  I am not embellishing in regards to that statement either.

One hour.  From like, four to five.

I got up and got back in my make shift steam room, which essentially was my shower on the whole time turned up to "11", with 11 being "scalding ass hot."

I would go in there and sit down with a towel over me trying to sweat as much as possible and also trying to attain as many third degree burns as my skin would allow me to before telling my brain to revolt.

My weight was stuck at 245, and no matter how many of these trips I made, or how much brown piss I expelled from my body, the scale just kept flashing "245" at me.  Pam texted me that she was going to go get on the exercise bike and I thought that didn't sound like a bad idea, and would give me a break from the torture chamber for a while.  So I limped out to the exercise room and rode the ol stationary bike for 20 minutes, and I started sweating pretty well.  I did a few more steam rooms and finally the scale dipped.

243.6

It was around this time that I received a text from Marshall "Freakshow" Johnson that he was outside the hotel in a minivan, waiting on me.

"Well" I thought..."It is what it is.  Maybe the scale will be light."

I mixed up my concoction of whey and gatorade and took a jaunt to the van.  Inside it I found many big bearded men....and Marshall Johnson....with some kids.

After a drive through the shithole that is wherever we were, we finally arrived at Detriot Barbell.  If there's a more dungeon like gym in all of Michigan, then I don't want to see it.  DBB is as gritty as you can get.  I mean grit.  If there were four homicides inside the place before we got there I'm not sure I would have noticed.

Everyone was in line for weigh ins and I suppose the nerves of the weigh in finally caught up with me as my hands trembled and I became very weak in the knees.  And I don't mean "Jessica Beil just walked by" weak in the knees.  I mean weak as in, I haven't had water in almost 40 hours, weak.

When it was my turn to weigh in all I could picture in my head was weighing in at what the scale said back at the room.

243.6..........

.......and then feeling like all of work was for nothing.

The scale was behind a door.  So basically you walked into the hallway, shut the door, and the guy read the scale from the other side.  So you didn't get to see what you weighed.  He just told you through the door.

I stepped on the scale.  "Be still, Paul." JJ told me.

"Ok you can get off now."

"What'd it say?" I said, nervously.

But he didn't answer.

"What'd it say?!?!?!"

Nothing.

I finished dressing and walked out of the hallway.  JJ was gone.

"Where's JJ?" I said aloud to no one in particular.

JJ finally reappeared.

"What did I weigh?"

JJ looked down at the paper and made a few marks on it.

"You're in the 275's right, Paul?"

"..................................."

He looked up at me and laughed.

"241."

It took a minute to sink in, and then all I could do was exhale and smile.  Marshall laughed at me and asked me if I was going to drink that "strange concoction you have in that jug."

"I am now." I said.

I think I finished it in two chugs.  After hanging out for a while, me, Marshall, Justin Graalfs, Pam Bosko, and Chad Dresden all decided to go eat.  I had been looking forward to having pancakes all week and it was time to now scarf down the heavenly sugar cakes.

As we got ready to head out, 277 pound Graalf's pulled up in his rent a car, rolled down the window, and gave a "what's up?"

This would be his rent a car........

 ....a Mazda2.

It's hard for me to explain in words how small this car is in person.  And just how ridiculous Justin looked sitting inside of it.

Which is why Marshall and I got in it with him.

Unfortunately we did not get a picture of that, as it would have been worth eleventy billion words.

Unfortunately #2 is that after a recomp, my appetite is usually not great.  It feels like I want to eat, but then when the meal comes, I can't get more than a few bites in before I have to sort of force more food down.  So I managed to eat less than the women sitting at or around our table.

Ultimately, I felt like a total wimp for eating less than Calista Flockhart on a day of fasting.  I managed two whole pancakes before tapping out.

After my dinosaur sized breakfast we all piled in various vehicles and headed back to "a" hotel (not mine, just "a" hotel) and sat around the lobby bullshitting and what not.  It wasn't too long before I actually started feeling hungry again and me, Justin, and Chad -- who I will now refer to as "fartbox" because that's all he did all day and all weekend -- walked over to a gas station to grab some shit to munch on for a while.  In said gas station Justin discovered a pack of "Night Bullet", which is apparently a male sexual enhancer, and as you might expect we made quite the spectacle of ourselves making jokes about "Night Bullet".

Justin also cannot stand up from a chair without breathing so hard he sounds like he's been doing Rocky IV style training montage workouts.  I mean just standing up from a chair.  Chad eventually nicknamed him "furry" due to his beard.

Furry said he wanted to go get some pasta, and said he knew of a place to go.  So Fartbox and I waited for him to pull around the front of the hotel so we could go to this place and eat.  But he never pulled around.  Twenty minutes later I get a text from Furry and he asks if we are coming to eat.  Apparently he took off with someone else and just expected us to show up any minute........which is essentially what happened.

We ended up eating at this fairly swanky Italian joint with Rob Luyando and Shawn Frankl.  Shawn ended up benching that night at the bench only portion of Relentless and hit 540 raw weighing 218.  Even better is that Shawn said at the table while we were eating "yeah I'm gonna bench.  I will open at 450 and go from there.  I trained three weeks for it, so we'll see."

Trained three weeks for it.  Did 540 at 218.

No you can't have his bench program, and even if you did it won't help you.  Stop being stupid.  Shawn is a freak and unless you plan on somehow getting his DNA you're not going to reproduce those numbers.  Let me also add that Rob is as good of a guy as you will meet, and has a huge heart and I can't take my hat off to him enough for how much support he gave me on meet day.  But more on that later.

After we finished eating, Furry, myself, and Fartbox ran some errands we had to take care of before the meet and then decided on this Sushi joint for the evening.  Furry went there the night before, and said they had this roll called the "Playboy" that was unreal good and that we had to get it.

When it came time to order, Justin told our waitress he wanted two of those Playboy rolls.

"But....it's really big." she said.

"I know.  I want two." Furry said.

"But it's like this...." she said, holding her hands about a foot apart.

"I know.  Want two!" Furry said.

"Have you seen it?  It's so long.  So big."

These comments started making me wonder if we were ordering sushi or if there was a sex shop in the back.

"I know.  I was here last night." Furry said.  "I want two."

I had to give Justin credit, because he was totally calm every time he repeated himself.  I mean he never raised his voice or became irritated at all.  It was kind of like that scene out of Dude Where's My Car where the woman keeps going "annnddd dennnnn...." except this woman just kept saying "so huge....so big".

I feel dirty now.

Anyway, after much coaxing (this story keeps getting worse and worse to write) Justin finally convinced her that she should bring him two of these rolls.  I too wanted two of them.  Fartbox just ordered one and we all still ordered an entree.

After both Justin AND Chad took a shit at the restaurant, we departed for the evening with full stomachs and carb comas creeping in.

I usually worry about my sleep the night before a meet, being a lifetime insomniac and all, however on this night, fell into a quick slumber and never woke the entire night.  Such nights are few and far between for me. 9 straight hours of deep sleep may have only happened to me as many times as I've been come onto by a Playboy model.  So that's once, that I can remember.

I weighed 264 upon waking.  So I basically gained 23 pounds in a day.  Not a bad recomp I must say.  Mainly do to Mike Israetel (check the link for Renaissance Periodization) and his plan (the same one he has Dan Green use, btw).

Now it was time to go lift................all that in part 2.