I was hanging out with some friends Friday night and a mutual friend of ours says that she could never be in a committed relationship again. Then later reveals that she gave an ultimatum to the guy she talks to, that he couldn't sleep with her as long as he kept sleeping with his ex-gf. Then she also said that told him she wouldn't sleep with anyone else.
Basically she had a terrible long term marriage and she refuses to believe that anything she does constitutes a commitment because she fears commitment. She is so afraid of commitment she doesn't even recognize commitment in her life when she is doing it because she fears it so badly.
I think we all do that at junctures and instances of our life. We want something badly however we don't want to attach a label to it for fear of that thing becoming something else that we abhor, or have bitterness about. Our past certain shapes who we are today, but you get to decide if you let it shape you into something bitter or jaded, or if you let it shape you into something better because you learned from it. We all like to believe we are the latter, but more often than not we carry a lot of the former with us no matter how hard we try.
I would have put up the workout from last night but does it matter that I did 315 x 5 on squats? I didn't think so.
To break down the last week for you however........
Last Tuesday - squats up to 605
Thursday - Bench up to 315 x 5, Deadlift - 315 x 5 singles as fast as possible
Yesterday - Squats 315 x 5
That's the whole last heavy workout and deload mix.
My right IT band is a little irritated and I've been on the foam roller and hitting the anti inflammatories. MY pec minors are getting a little better. I'm hopeful that meet day this will be minor. If not, plenty of ibuprofen.
After the meet I will probably take a week off. My goal after this will be to shed some of this extra adipose through conditioning and my MRP diet. That thing is awesome. Easy and works to perfection. It's not going to get you bodybuilding stage ripped, but I never have to worry about what I'm going to do eating wise to get lean again. I but enough MRP's for however long I am going to diet and that's it. It's the most simple shit ever, and it works. My guess is, I will end up around 238ish to 242 or so pretty darn lean. I'm not going to be worried about strength during this phase, because well, that would be stupid. My goal will be to get into shape (using a conditioning block), then after I am in shape I will go from there. If I qualify for the USPF worlds I will plan on competing in the 242 class and not the 275's. So it behooves me to stay at 240 or so. Even if that is not my completely optimal weight for powerlifting. I just feel better there.
I did get around to watching an old movie this weekend called "Hardcore" with George C. Scott in it. It was just meh. I had seen parts of it when I was young and I think back during that time, the movie was pretty shocking. But we were quite bored and I have found that those older movies like that do a terrible job, for the most part, at setting a good pace, even for character development. This seems to be pretty common in older movies I watch. I wonder if now we are so accustomed to something faster paced that we can't enjoy a slower developing story, or if those movies just do suck?
I had a plan for the meet to end up with a decent total on my second attempts but I talked with Wendler for a while about this and have changed my game plan around a bit. I'm going to trust Jim with this and be smart. I could very easily end up with a rather pedestrian total or a halfway decent one. Either way, at this point, just showing up healthy is going to be nice.
I should have the first Lift-Run-Bang shirt on for this meet. Obviously I will get pics and if you guys really have enough interest I will put them up. It reads "Lift-Run-Bang" ("really? no fucking way?") and has a screaming Spartan skull with helmet on.
Short and sweet this week. I am still fairly tired but will probably have another "thoughts" post later this week as I'm resting up.
I hope everyone had a "Happy Birfday Merica" day.