I have wiped the slate clean. Rid of people who were negative, life sucking drains in my life. Everyday it feels better. I feel better.
I have no idea why people won't let go of family or friends who shorten their life span. I learned to do this with people a long time ago, but haven't put it into effect enough lately. But I'm good again. I know that everyones breaking point is different, but it should be measured in months, not years. Certainly not decades. I know people who keep friends around that do nothing but take, take, take. That's not a friendship. A friendship, whether that be your spouse or your buddy, should be that compliments your life and theirs. I'm not saying you don't endure bad times together. You do. That's exactly what friends are for. To help prop you up when you are at your weakest.
However there comes a time when to cut ties, when all your friend does is drain you and create a constant negative in your life. Put in the effort to help them get over whatever it is they need to get over, but at some point everyone has to help themselves. If they aren't willing or can't do that, and it's a drain on your own life, they have to go. And you have to be willing to let them go. It doesn't make you an asshole. It means you realize you have gone more than halfway, and they aren't willing to meet you the rest of the way. I said MORE than halfway. A good friend does go the extra mile, however that friendship should be reciprocated. And in time of weakness the other person still have to take some steps to meet you.
When I realized I had gone about 3/4 of the way, and the last 1/4 wasn't going to happen by those other people, I knew I had to cut them out. At that point, it wasn't hard anymore. Because I could look at myself in the mirror and know that I gave as much as I should have given, and had no regrets. I let one of the two know that if they ever wanted to really be my friend again, just call me and learn how to meet me halfway.
I am at peace.
Training wise I am also at peace.
I have managed to hit a 605 squat, 430 close grip bench, and 650 deadlift in the last 3 weeks. Only one is a PR, however I exhaled last night after the 605 squat, knowing all the work was over and that outside of some nicks I am healthy. My shoulders and elbows are a bit irritated, and my pec minors are as well. However I think some rest will help fix those quite a bit and so will some anti inflammatories. My right IT band is also slightly irritated but not enough that I was bothered in squatting. I am still thinking about my attempts because I talked to Wendler last night and he's drilling me about going really conservative on my openers and second attempts. I had some different thoughts in mind, but I respect what Jim has to say so we'll see. I'm not a egotistical lifter and never have been, so I know I'll be smart about this.
I am friends with this female that was in Playboy (I'm not kidding and I'm not dropping her name). I grew up with her in the small town I lived in. Anyway, she asks shit like "who wants to mow my yard?" and like dudes show up with lawn mowers, ready to mow. She asks who wants to take her out to Victoria Secret for shopping? And dudes will show up and take her shopping.
Let me let you in on something right now fellas. If you do that, you will not EVER get to hit it. Fact.
Her and I had a laugh about it actually. I said "you know that you don't respect any of those guys that bow down like that. You're never going to bang any of those guys, even though they think they are getting in your good graces by doing that shit."
She laughed and said "you're right." I know I'm right. I had two sisters growing up and have been surrounded by women my whole life. Guys don't get this shit, and I don't know why. The guy that tells her "Uhhh, I'm not mowing your yard. I'll loan you my mower, but you gotta do your own work." is the guy that has a better chance. Because she'll respect him. Guys are generally pretty pathetic when it comes to working with women. Giving in to everything they ask and stomp around for is a sure way to make sure they never respect you. And if a woman doesn't respect you, well you're just kind of her bitch.
My 4 year old has discovered He-Man. So I've been watching it in the afternoons with her. I love it because I laugh so much and she thinks it's so awesome. I think the show was created by a bunch of gay dudes because every guy is totally jacked, and Prince Adam (wouldn't it have been awesome if they had named him Prince Albert?) wears a pink shirt and purple tights. Man At Arms has a total pornstache, and every dude has tight crotched pants. The one thing I laugh at, is that Prince Adam doesn't even change when he turns into He-Man. He just has on less clothes. But no one recognizes that it's Prince Adam. And of course Adam is never around when He-Man is. These cartoons are filled with idiots. Better than that is just the random silliness of it all. And even better, is that I get to spend that time with my 4 year old laughing and talking about it all. The bestest!
If you didn't see that Pat Berry - Kongo fight, go watch it. Un-flippin-real.
I still have not caught up on any movies. If you've been reading here long enough you'll know that I go in cycles of watching a ton of shit for a while, then nothing for a while. I have to let the queue build up with shit I want to see. Right now nothing really excites me.
Not a ton to write on this week. I just feel elated to be ready for the meet. After the meet I am going to get my run on, do my shake diet for about 6 weeks, and lean back up to 240. Can't wait.
Hope everyone is having a great week!